毎年、梅雨の季節には心身の調子が乱れます。小学生の頃に盲腸の手術をしたのも、神戸に来る前に流産したのも、この時期でした。今年は歯茎が腫れてきたので、歯医者に通っています。でも、あまり落ち込まないために、自分にこう言い聞かせています。きれいな花を咲かせるためには雨が必要なように、この不調期は次に訪れる好調期に向けてバランスを整えるときなのだ、と。今年は雨が少ないけれど、ちゃんと花は咲くかしら？
June
I always feel weak, both physically and mentally, in the
rainy season. It was around this time of the year when I had an operation for appendicitis
when I was an elementary school kid. It was also around this time of the year when
I had a miscarriage before coming to Kobe. Now I am seeing a dentist since my
gums have been swollen. Not to be too depressed, however, I am telling this to
myself; just as rain is needed for flowers to bloom beautifully, this may be a
period to balance myself for the next chance of happiness. Since we have not
had much rain this year, I wonder if flowers will really bloom though?
